ESCAPISM

you know when someone shows they are not into you, they utter a long list excuses to justify their actions. and you just get along with them because they think they've fooled you. its otherwise. one time, when all the excuses sound cliche, you just need put them back to where they belong. im staying, but you have to leave. like the way you came.

you know you are messed up when everything broke in one day. my phone, my laptop, the car is leaking and my driving license will expired soon. even my relationship just goes to shitpit I don't even feel messed up like this. since every misfortune, there is wisdom beyond it. take a deep breath. im looking forward to my vacation.

"if something is worth the risk, just go for it. as life too short to consider a lot." - Everything, everything (2017) i shall buy the book then, im so in love with the movie.

"...rusty has been relieved from the pain, and she goes to heaven. rest in peace my baby." -in memories

" when silence is a farewell you never utter. "

sometimes i choose to stay single for the rest of my life. sometimes i feel the need to talk to someone. sometimes i want to stay in secluded place where no one live. what i want is to have someone proud of my presence. compliment my achievement. sleep away this sadness. leave people who never desire to stay in your present.

" ....as the word love becomes meaningless, .....her heart which once was warmth, turn cold, ......freeze and numb. she lives as heartless as she can be. "

" i'll see you soon. " it sounds nothing, but it holds a tiny hope.

perasaan itu ibarat bunga cantik yang sedang berkembang. indah dipandang. wangi semerbak. tapi jika tidak dijaga, dibaja, disiram, dibelai, bunga yang kembang akan layu, dan akhirnya mati ditelan masa. tammat

my 3 a.m thought. someone said this to me, " kenapa mesti nak bersusah payah bila bercinta? " i was dumbfounded. betul, cinta itu mudah. tapi untuk sentiasa menyintai itu perlu usaha. komunikasi itu penting. even a random topic. i observed people's action, expression, words, attitude and everything. i can sense when they are not that into me, as what I've been experience before. i am speechless. when people saying that, as if they are meant i am not worth their effort. and this one question keep lingering in my head, " do i want this guy as my life partner? " the answer is no. because relationship takes two to tango, gives and takes, happy and sad, peace and fight, calm and windy, summer and winter, bright and dark, north and south. the opposites attract. to be together we need more than a casual hi or easy goodbye. relationship, in my belief is consistently doing what both of you valued together. like a small talk, a good morning wish, a random ...