ESCAPISM

Ive been scroll over the instagram and my hand itchy to order all the beautiful clothes. That knitted wear in green is lovely. The sandals is actually needed to complete my outfit of the day. I may need to control my desire to own all of them. Gahhhhh 😩 Well my saturday spent with work in the office, played with kitten, and marathon harry potter series. What else, reading my webtoon, reading my e-novels and yeah listening to backstreet boys playlist. Happy? Erm, i lost words to describe my everyday feeling. Normal maybe a good choice of word to describe overall.  This is just a random post. I just love anything that so random. Ive been eating subways cookies, it’s delicious and addictive. Double chocolate chip, oatmeal something and macadamia nuts something. Hahaha my brain aint good on something with long name. Ive been calculating to buy subways cookies, but then i think, i almost run out of budget. Okay, i need to save up to make sure i will be home after work, not st...

Another sleepless night. After tossed around and got some weird dream. Its always like this for almost every night. I wonder when will i really get a good night sleep. My eyes sunken, my eye bag just bad and keep being darker. If i dont put more effort on my face, my lifeless face will be exposed to the world.  Ive got headache since there is something ive been worried and its not yet solved. The thought keep lingered in my head. I lose my appetite in the middle of my meal, or i found my food just tasteless and craved more savory food instead.  I have a lots of way to destroy my health but i am an organ donor, i cant do that. Glad that i registered  as donor. At least im saving my life from myself.  Gosh, i do need sleeping pill.

Dear zachary, I dont think you are reading this, just so you know it was nice knowing you. Ive been remembered all good words youve been said to me. While knowing you, its give me a hope that good guy do exist. In those times ive a good talk with you, i take it as the best chapter in my 2018. Truth is i have crush on you. My goodness, feels like high school girl. 😂 thus, the moment im saying goodbye, it was the hardest part. I never like saying goodbye, never good at it. Because the moment i say goodbye, i feel like my heart broke into pieces. I have to pick them up and stick them back with positivity. It is long process, but times heal.  Im fine, i was grateful for crossing path with you even we never see each other in real life. This will never come true, i know 😌. Thank you for all the kind words. Thank you for coming in very short time. I did have a blast. Knowing that its the best virtual experience.  May you have a good home, good health, good wealth and...

Dear Hazwan, These are something ive been pondered to tell you but i have no courage to do so. I have no grudge over you and your family. We have failed in relationship because we failed in communication. As we grow older, i learnt a good lesson through out the experiences. Forgive my immature words and actions. I have act reckless. As we will not crossing path anymore, i wish you having a good life, good health, good partner and marriage, become excellent entrepreneur and may your business prosper in great length of time.  Peace.