“Until when do i have to feel this emptiness?
Until when will i able to describe my feeling?
Until when do i have to remind myself the feeling of being loved by someone?
Until when do i have to stop myself from having self pity sessions?”


The questions go on and on, its infinte without the exact answer.
My biggest wish is to have an off button for my brain.

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