Random : oct, 8th

Its 2020 and pandemic year. climate change getting worse. more people are dying. its been awhile writing a blog. re-reading the post and reminisce back the past. all is well.

i am yet married, still holding the idea of living a single life for a lifetime. having a pleasure in reading some manga, webtoon, e-novels and any other sources of reading material. i am glad i can stick with my reading habit.

i just received this laptop today from a friend of mine, doctor kumaran. start as a stranger through a chat apps. quite old, but for me im using it for work & its work well to watch a netflix. i dont need fancy laptop anyway. as long as i can do my work at home, or anywhere else without using my brother's properties. im good.

tomorrow is my sister's birthday. i pray that she meet a good, wise & kind-hearted man who will love her till jannah. hopefully this one prayer will be granted by Allah SWT. amin.

good night.


xoxo


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